The words, "...I must exert myself" jumped off the page. THIS, then, is the secret ingredient to honouring whatever gift you have been given to share with the world. I MUST EXERT myself.
Just imagine what would happen if I could CONTROL myself to ALWAYS dwell in possibility and wonder, and not get bogged down with issues, which inevitably leads me to not "arriving at the page."
Wise words from a wise and creative man.